Follow Up

For those of you who are curious of how my life turned out after the abuse.....

I left home of my own accord at 11 years old, Of course I got married at 16, I narrowly survived that horribly abusive 1 st marriage , Thankfully with my life and the lives of my 2 oldest children.

And I am now married to a wonderful husband and father. I say that I am survivor loosely because everyday is a battle to cope with my past. No matter how good things seem, in the back of my mind I am still waiting for the last shoe to drop. It is so difficult to not expect betrayal or fear some hidden perversion. Just to trust someone is a battle in and of itself.

I like to think....
that just being in a good marriage with wonderful children whom I probably overprotect, I work so hard at being a good mom...I have 5 children now by the way......
Is enough to say I am a survivor, but inside I still feel dirty. I still feel wounded. My spirit is still broken. But I think I hide it well.....